A Conversation with Alan of Alanworks
“It’s about time,” I said. Waiting for Alan is not my favorite time play. Alan has been going on to me for a while about Freedom Hill. As always, the cryptic Alan wasn’t saying much but was in his steady mode of “just doing” and not talking.
It was a very warm and waxing day in December as Alan lumbered up to the door of his private studio. Typical Alan, hat on backwards, sunglasses perched on his slightly hooked nose with an oversized walking stick that has been carved to look like a wizards staff. Alan has many quirky parts to him. Alan’s gate has always been oddly fast. It appears that he is being pulled through the air and not walking. I could never figure that one out. At times he looks like an executive right off Wall Street, and others, Picassos Aryan younger brother, but always camera in hand or at least, photographing people, places or things with that mind of his.
“What the Hell is that?” I said, eyeing a long string of animal bones hanging from a pine tree like a wind chime outside of his private studio.
“You see how that tree is split apart at the bottom of the trunk,” Alan darted his words with what seems to be the obvious.
“Yea,” I said.
“Bones in a split apart tree, right?” Alan questioned.
“Yea, but I still don’t get it,” I said.
“It’s a post modernist sculpture, and I call it… “BONAPARTE,” Alan said with a straight face.
“Ok idiot, then what the hell is this?” Alan had found a small, antique door that was once painted a teal color. The door was partially buried next to his Bonaparte tree and resembled in an odd way the monolith from 2001. Alan had placed medium sized river stones around the door and a created a stone pathway leading away from the planted teal door.
“Let me guess,” I said. “It’s a knock-knock joke!”
“No… but I like your idea of it,” Alan laughed. “It’s for Ann, for all that she’s done for me. A small token on how I feel.”
As Alan said “feel”, his voice started to trail off. Staring at the door, almost… with laser-set eyes.
“It’s really quite simple,” Alan said, “I entitled it… I-A’DOOR’YOU…”
I smiled but I don’t think I’ll ever understand him. Alan has a uniquely styled sense of humor that can be silly and serious all at the same time. You can really get a sense about him after a few moments like these. There is an immediate knowing… that Alan is not from around here.
Alan unlocked his studio door, as we entered the sounds of composer Philip Glass were detonating from his stereo. Surreal in structural orchestration, Philip Glass is one of Alan’s favorite modern composers.
“As I wrote in my last book,” Alan roared over the music, “I think Philip Glass should rewrite the National anthem. After all, Francis Scott Key pinched the music from the British, I think we either rewrite the melody or pay a license fee to the Queen every time we sing it.”
“I don’t think it works that way Alan,” I roared back. I see why Alan likes this CD. As I looked over the titles, it’s Glass’ interpretation of David Bowie’s Heroes, Brian Eno’s Low, all Alan’s favorite people wrapped into Glass’s symphonic wave of musical thought.
I have known Alan for around four years now. I have seen people throw all sorts of hatred at him, and at the same time, praise him for the photographic work he creates. Even his harshest critics concede his talent. But I have never seen Alan down, distraught or angry about the buzz around him. And if anyone has the right to be angry, it’s him. Somehow Alan makes things work. His nature is that of a gentle person and I have heard him say over and over again, it’s always about the higher road.
As Alan sat behind his large desk, there was an oversized book open with photographs and postcards that Alan had taken and glued to the blank pages. A great deal of handwritten notes with small to large multi-colored lettering scrawled almost in a random fashion jumping from page to page. The lettering had a feel of a cubist drawing that the scrawled words hid in.
“New book?” I inquired.
“No.. just windows John, windows…,” Alan said quietly.
“I give up with you sometimes…;” I grunted.
“In this book John, contains the most influential, or should I say, had created the most extensive visual appreciation in my life. Actually, it changed everything,” Alan laughed. “What seemed lifetimes ago, a small group of us were in Paris and we enrolled in a day study at the Louvre. Our assignment was to write our experiences of the artwork as our instructor toured us around the many galleries. At the end of the day, we were to write “our impressions” of the day and if our exposure to the masterworks at the Louvre had left any lasting effect. We all had an hour or two for our write-ups. As my comrades wrote their hearts out, I had an epiphany of sorts. I no longer looked upon a painting in a frame that hung on the wall… as just a painting.”
“Well, what more can it be,” I asked.
“A window,” laughed Alan and added, “I now see a framed painting or any other form of visual artwork as a window. When I go to a gallery, or a restaurant, or a friend’s home that has artwork, I now look upon them as windows into another world. I also see it as a direct link into the mind of the artist. But mostly, just a window looking out…”
“That doesn’t make any sense,” I said.
“Sure it does John, just think about it for a moment,” Alan said informally. “Go stand in front of Goya’s black paintings or a Cezanne and you can see the fashion and emotions of that period. A masterwork contains elements of the thoughts and feelings of when the paint hit the canvas. But especially in photography, the subjective passing of “freezing time and space” into a window is so very important. But a window nevertheless. If it’s done right you can almost walk into the frame and converse with the subject, feel the wind or hear the stream that is employed in the composition. Windows John, just windows.
“So what did you write.. as your impressions of your day class at the Lovure?” I asked.
“I simply wrote the word, WINDOWS… turned it in and went off for a coffee. I felt sorry for my friends. They all composed these long sprays of artistic intellectualisms and then had to wait in line for their coffees… Oh well,”Alan said smilingly.
“Oh well is right,” I said. With that Alan closed his window journal, and said, “Time for a walk John. You need the exercise!”
We stood up and exited Alan’s private studio and headed south from the studio into the pastureland that is part of the ancestral Kelly ranch where Alan and Ann make their lovely home. Alan and Ann’s dog “Penrod” or the galloping goofus as Alan calls her, joined us with her high spirits carrying an oversized stick between her teeth.
“Penrod lives for sticks,” Alan said.
“Sticks?” I asked.
“You bet, watch this.” And with that Alan snatched the stick from Penrod’s growling grasp and gave the stick a long throw. Penrod, who resembles a miniature German Shepard took off like a cruise missile after the stick with a trail of dust like a contrail behind her.
“Penrod really takes this seriously,” I said laughing.
“You know it John,” Alan said. Penrod tackled the stick stirring up a cloud of dust and with great fanfare ran back to Alan for another round. ” Penrod would like to play sticks for the next hour or so,” Alan said patting the growling Penrod between her ears.
We walk at a steady incline with Penrod leading the way, passing beautiful cholla and the not so beautiful prickly-pear cacti festooning the area. Rocks of all sizes and shapes from white quartz to granite littered the area; some hidden in purple shaded prairie grasses but most were not. But I was impressed by the hues that stretched out before me. Each color added to the pallet of a photographers or painters dream. Very magical. In a sparse but poignant abbreviation stood a handful of ancient cedar trees.
“The Cedars are really large bonsais John,” spoken as if Alan could read my mind. “They’ve been dwarfed by the combination of altitude and drought and I’m sure most of them are over a hundred years old or more,” Alan said over the steady breeze.
We reached the top of what Alan calls “Freedom Hill” that has a 360-degree, horizon-to-horizon view. The mountains were set in deep blue at this time of day with whitecap ranges in the very distance and closer in runs the foothills that are known as the hogbacks. The hogbacks are rugged crags dotted with Cedar and Pinion trees arching into a plateau then tapering off to the north with Pikes Peak in the expanse acting like an explanation point.
I noticed several piles were long sandstone rocks collected at the top of Freedom Hill. Some of the piled rocks were at least four feet long lying on the ground, some piled on top of one another.
“Did you drag these up here Alan?” I asked.
“No… Ann’s Father did. The rocks are to be a memorial to his parents. Ann’s Father passed away before he could get to it, so I’ll create it in honor for Ann’s Grandparents. I’ll arrange the stones like the ones I’ve seen in the North of Scotland called Standing Pict stones.
“What’s a Pict ?” I asked.
“You mean… who are the Picts?” Alan said in humor. “The Picts were an ancient race of people whom, according to the Romans during their occupation of the British Isles; stood around four feet tall with blue skin and massive hairy arms. The Romans built the Hadrian Wall starting on the western shore, stretching across Scotland and ending at the North Sea on the eastern shore. You can still stand on the Hadrian Wall today. In my opinion, the Romans were scared of these little blue Neanderthals.
“Blue Neanderthals???” I said. Alan is so full of it today I said to myself. “With massive hairy arms..” Alan cut me off.
“Yes. Massive hairy arms,” Alan said with a very straight face. “The Picts would lift these enormous stones, bury one end of them into the ground to create columns of standing stones as far as the eye could see,” Alan said as if I wasn’t there. “The stones are scattered all over the North of Scotland but I don’t think they are related to Stonehenge in Woodstockshire in the south of England. I felt small when I stood next to the standing stones of Stonehenge, they are massive and duly impressive and full of the unknown, but recreating a mini Stonehenge is not what I see for Freedom Hill. Yet I feel that Freedom Hill is a very sacred spot.”
“How could this be sacred?” I asked.
“”When I came up here after I returned home from my forced exile, two things happened at the same time. One where the sounds of words that I heard from the past, the other was a greater understanding about the passions in my life,” Alan said with a serious look on his face.
Words? I asked.
Alan continued, “The first words that came to me I heard was when I was a boy. They were spoken during Ted Kennedy’s eulogy of his brother Robert during Robert’s funeral. I know that Robert Kennedy used them in his campaign 1968 but I believe that George Bernard Shaw actually wrote them. Yet wherever or whomever placed this phrased on paper, the energy of each word came roaring through the sky and sat on the end of my nose.
“Some men see things as they are and say: why? I dream things that never were and say; why not!”
From a political and sociological viewpoint, you can feel the vision and intelligence behind those words. But from a photographer’s point of view, it becomes a creed.”
“And this happened after your exile?” I said over the wind.
“Yes it did,” Alan replied whilst looking over the horizon. “I am not the existentialist philosopher Kostas Axelos but at times I feel like him. My life has been guided by the burning passion of my photographic vision or the ideas that live in that vision, and so that is where the conflicts arise.
“How can vision be conflictive, its just a vision?” I asked with a great deal of seriousness since I felt that Alan has had a lot of time to think about this.
“The day I set foot into this area,” Alan went on. “A negative dialogue started about me. I generally never believe anything said or written about me. Either positive or negative, I just do my work and either the public likes it or they don’t. I have never actively gone after a person as they do here. I strongly believe in the First Amendment, and the rights espoused in the First Amendment protects every person here or anywhere for that matter. I may not agree with you, but I will support your Freedom to say it.
Just the sound of the wind carried Alan’s thoughts…
“Then, quietly… the words - Passion and its reward” came drifting to me. To understand an artistic passion is to understand the dialectic process of metaphor throughout the conflict of opposing forces. The dialectic argument opens the minds and alters the opinions on both sides of the equation. To see this process at work, just look at President Bush at this moment in time. Bush and his Neo-cons almost destroyed our country. The economic mess hopefully will be Bush’s last charge. People have turned sour over Bush in the last six years reflected by the American people in Bush’s approval ratings, and rightly so. But now this joke of a Presidency is over, people are actually feeling sorry for the canary in the oval cage.”
I remained silent as Alan continued his thoughts…
“The dialectic process has open the minds of Bush’s opposing force and are creating a feeling of compassion where compassion never existed. The legacy of the Bush administration was to destroy compassion as reflected in the laws the Bushies passed or even in Bush’s Foreign policy. Bush said over and over, that America is a country of laws. But it is the American people, who traditionally are the compassionate ones that started to warm to Bush because of the dialectic process.
The America people know that we are not a country of laws; we are a country of compassion.
But I found out that living in the area that we do there is a group of people who don’t care… what thinking people, think. Most of this fascist behavior is based on a strange form of God from the bully pulpit or a political Party, or propaganda that they love to generate which leads to unspeakable atrocities. It is the cause of all backlash and criticisms from others because they don’t share your passions, and vilify the people who actually create or do something. But then it dawned on me. It was the same thing that Robert Kennedy campaigned on.
“And what was that?” I asked
“Poverty.” Alan said with a smile. “As strange as it may seem, this area is committed to poverty on many different levels.”
“Take a look to the west John and what do you see?” Alan said pointing his finger to the many large rectangular gray buildings that dot the countryside. “Prison after prison. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard from the leaders of this community… to create jobs in this area, let’s build another prison. That’s not vision, that’s repetition. That’s not leadership, that’s administration of the same.”
“Sure it’s leadership.” I snapped back.
“No John,” Alan said. “It’s not.” Leadership is the Sheriff in Cook County Illinois who refused to evict renters when the banks foreclosed on their apartment building. The renters paid their rent on time but the landlord kept the rent checks and didn’t pay the mortgage. Even under threat of a lawsuit by the bank, the Sheriff refused to evict the renters who didn’t do anything wrong. That’s leadership. Or the grocery stores back east that have pharmacies located in their stores handing out free antibiotics and cold medicines during the flu season. The grocery stores reasoning, ” People shouldn’t have to paid for cold medicine. It’s not their fault for getting sick.” That’s leadership John.”
“That’s unheard of.” I said.
“But take leadership out of the equation and it makes the struggle of life even harder than it generally is,” Alan stated. “Think about John, a leaderless life of poverty reduces a person’s life to its marginal state. The joy, the fun, the mainstream of opportunities disaggregates in front of your eyes. And you find people living quiet lives of desperation. Of course I became a target because I’m awake and aware mentally, and… I’m not from around here. I do, and live my artistic passion.
Alan took a paused then said forcibly …
I’ve never been a person sit there and bitch or call people monsters or take the human element of personality out of life’s equation. I don’t live from one anti-depression drug to another masking life or seeking to control people. I’m an artist and so when melancholy strikes, it becomes source of inspiration… and when I feel great joys, those joys become a form of spiritual awakening. Artists live through the drama of sacrifice and that drama becomes its cultural breath.”
“All this.. on Freedom Hill?” I asked.
Yes John… all this on Freedom Hill… right here in the heart of Penrose Colorado,” Alan said with a smile.
Then Alan turned and looked at me with his hawk set blue eyes and said.
“Some men see things as they are and say: why? I dream things that never were and say; why not!”
After a few moments of silence… Alan, if giving me instructions said in a very resolute way… “John… perhaps it’s time for someone to spark a new industry into this area… perhaps it’s time for someone to create a food bank for the poor of this county… perhaps its time to have a center where people could gather to… for the education of the arts that truly represents the arts… and perhaps it’s time to take the camera out John… Passion and its rewards… John. Passion and its rewards…”
With that, Alan… Penrod in full gallop and myself started down Freedom Hill to the sounds of a western wind and a hint of crimson in the clouds above… just footsteps and a glancing aroma from Annie’s kitchen hiding in the winds…
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